Trying to Find a Purpose in Life

My therapist has given me homework and now I have to start questioning my beliefs regarding my life purpose. This was due to me mentioning my haphazard search for life purpose on the internet. For instance, It seems that not even Google could answer my quest for a life purpose. So I now have answer one of the many questions I have found, to be discussed in the coming week’s therapy.

I stumbled across Mark Manson’s 7 questions which I am going to use his questions to complete the home work. So these are his questions and my answers because at this stage in my life, I am feeling strange and need the strange questions to figure it out.

Mark Manson’s 7 Strange Questions that Help you Find your Life Purpose

Question 1: WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE FLAVOR OF SHIT SANDWICH AND DOES IT COME WITH AN OLIVE?

Question 2: WHAT IS TRUE ABOUT YOU TODAY THAT WOULD MAKE YOUR 8-YEAR-OLD SELF CRY?

There I was sitting having breakfast, trying to not cry in my scrambled eggs because this was the question that resonated with me the most. In addition to soggy eggs, I was picturing 8 year old me who would be crying in disbelief. Without a doubt this life of mine is not what she hoped for.

• Yes, I am married, and;
• Yes, I have pets, and;
• Yes, I know love, and;
• No, I don’t have any children, and;
• No, I don’t stand up for what I believe in, and;
• No, I don’t make use of my imagination, and;
• No, I don’t dream of a future anymore.

It would seem that 8 year old me has an awesome vocabulary and ability to express herself, however still rather sarcastic.

I wanted very few things out my life as a child looking forward. However, all I wanted was the idyllic white picket fence, with the family (with at least 3 children) and the chaos that comes with having dogs and cats. With these things, I would be happy.

What has hit me harder than anything, is that I no longer live with hopefulness and the fierceness of possibilities. As an 8 year old, reality hasn’t worn you down and you believe that anything you want is a possibility.

I have become older than my years. As a result, my age is now showing in my thoughts, mannerisms and way of life.

8 year old me would cry.

Question 3: WHAT MAKES YOU FORGET TO EAT AND POOP?

Question 4: HOW CAN YOU BETTER EMBARRASS YOURSELF?

Question 5: HOW ARE YOU GOING TO SAVE THE WORLD?

Question 6: GUN TO YOUR HEAD, IF YOU HAD TO LEAVE THE HOUSE ALL DAY, EVERY DAY, WHERE WOULD YOU GO AND WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

Question 7: IF YOU KNEW YOU WERE GOING TO DIE ONE YEAR FROM TODAY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO AND HOW WOULD YOU WANT TO BE REMEMBERED?