I am by no means an expert on Covid-19, however, I like many have had to make changes to my life and household.
Life
- News consumption
- Routines
- Depression
My news consumption has definitely changed during the hard lock down and subsequent relaxing of restrictions. My morning and evening routine is to check the numbers of cases, followed by the live news update and then checking my twitter feed.
Normally I avoid all news, as I enjoy being in an ignorant bubble. However this crisis has shaken me to come out my bubble. My heavy sighs has prompted my husband to threaten to take away my phone. It is scary out there, and I am dreading the day that the virus affects my family, colleagues and friends directly.
The routines that we now follow are all about minimising the risk of letting the virus enter this household. We are washing our hands and wearing our masks. And the frantic cleaning and disinfecting is still there.
As one can imagine, my depression and anxiety has rocketed. I am trying to keep it at bay, but it creeps in stealthily. I haven’t used my bullet journal for about three months now. There doesn’t seem to be much point in making plans when we live in such uncertainty. Every weekend holiday I have had to cancel and reschedule is deepening the downward spiral. Going in to work on an almost daily schedule, has helped with making things seem “normal”. Work however is getting stressful and on bad days it seems insurmountable.
Household
- Cleaning
- Relationship
- Pugs
As I have stated above I have started cleaning more frequently. That is the one positive thing that has happened. My husband leaves for work at 05:30am and I am generally awake until I have to go to work. I am now using the time to listen to podcasts while cleaning. It does make a difference to my mood to come home to a household that is relatively clean.
I am rather proud of my husband and I during this time. We haven’t had a fight, not a serious fight at least. I was worried that the two of us cooped up for a long stretch of time would lead to friction, however I was worried for no reason.
Keeping the pugs happy and occupied has been a bit of a challenge. The hard lock down meant they couldn’t go out on their usual walks. They did spend the time staring at us wondering why they weren’t at their grandmother. Although there was frustration on both sides, their unconditional love and trust has helped with our own levels of anxiety.